Frankie on the down low...

So honestly I haven't been updating or doing much on the art front lately. Since the 30/30 show in July I been burnt out. On July 3rd I had a panic attack over the project and called someone I really liked. Someone I wanted to be romantically envolve with. But I never told him I was Bipolar and we had a fall out due to him not being able to deal with my disorder. I had also stooping taking my meds after starting the project June 1st. I wanted to see what would happen with my art as i tapered down my meds and reduced to nothing. I used the projected to see if I wanted to stay on meds.

And the truth is I need Lithium to keep me balanced. I have been on a roller coasted ride from hell and back and I see now that I can't just mediate or do some new age shit. I have a disorder in my brain. Lithium helps to restore balance and allows me to better focus on my work and my emotional problems. That doesn't mean it makes me perfect but it gives me a chance to work on myself and my craft.

I don't have to be another sad artist who kills them self. (not that I plan that. Would make too many people happy and frankly I'm not in the mood to make any ass holes happy.) So at last day two of being on Lithium. The future is what I want to shape it to be and shaping the key core for me.

I quite smoking and I am starting to slowly but surely work out. I want to be better person all the way around. In side and out. So the break is over. I have been working way too many hours at work and not enough hours in my art studio.

So back to the drawing board folks!

I suck at updating!

Yeah I know I suck at updating. If only I could get paid to post on this about art and shit and be able to suport me and my cat, Oryan. But at last I don't get paid...yet. haha